Every time I choose to not feel my feelings- sadness, shame, angry, angst/fear, disgust or hopeless despair, I am abandoning myself, no one is abandoning me more than I am. This is how we learn to live in our false selves and are ultimately left with trying to create our own identity. As I have lived my life without an identity, the identity I used to hide was enemy mode. This came/comes in many forms- I can hide from you, I can isolate, I can attack or I can work to fix m